decoupage in frames

 

 I have put some tape on the electric cord from the lamp, the whiteness annoyed me.

The duvet cover is my favourite, I even got 2 sets, though they slightly differ in colour tones. 

They are both from different charity shops. loving it

 At the hospital they advised me to change something in my bed-area.
-because before you get hospitalized you sped a whole lot of time in your bed
-- so now your bed is a place with bad memories

It took me some time to figure out what I wanted.
I ended up making decoupage of some of the flowers I drew while at the hospital.
- and put them in some old gold coloured frames.

It is now definitely a more positive thing to lie in bed, than it has been.
which is good.

bedside table

I bought this table for myself some time ago, for 30 danish kr.
At some point, I decided to make it more exciting, interesting, pretty
--> so I found my boxes with paper cuttings from magazines ect.
The result is what you see.
I am very satisfied.
I do wish the paper hadn't wringled because of the moisture from the laquer.
But so it is, now, I know.

The kitchen

 

The kitchen as it was, on the left picture.

The two pictures on the right is how my kitchen looked for over half a year

 First part in the renovation was demolition of wall(we only took down the outer layer of plaster, straw, metal thread, and nails - taking it down was great fun actually, I felt so cool and powerfull;)

 Fixing the ceiling and walls. All electric cords were put into the wall or over the ceiling.

 

 The floor.

We pulled the old floor off, then there was put some water pipe down, and then we had some pros put down the new floor 

( it took them 2 days, voila)

 My little storage room, one of my favorite parts of the apartment.

The picture lowest, right is how it originally looked.

 The kitchen in finished condition, almost

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I am now out from the hospital and back in my apartment.
It is no fun, but darn hard work.
I truly hope it will all pan out in the end!

Striped shawl

I decided I wanted a summer shawl.
Having some blue yarn, and some red yarn, but not enough of either to make a whole shawl of either.
I made it striped.
I even made a knitting swap where I tested which seize needle I wanted. Very proud.
In the middle of the shawl there is a lace pattern, and both the sides are striped.

Now, 20 cm into the work, and I am bored out my mind!

So either I stick it out, or I unravel the thing, and then think of a more advanced/interesting design.
Only the thing is, going more advanced, will perhaps be too difficult.

A such trouble.

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In 4 days I am moving back into my apartment, and out of the hospital.
Very excited.

quiet

 Its been quiet here for some time now.

The reason being, that I am still at the hospital, still feeling very unwell.

Not that it is a new for me to feel unwell, but it is new, to fess up to it.

To accept it, and to be in it.

It, being a depression 

Below is the result of at least some of my hours spent in the hospital

That's all for now.

The only thing I will promise, is to drink some more tea and draw a bit more.

mitten fron 2009

Back in 2009, I finished these mittens with fish, for my mother.
 - But I never took a picture of them finished.
So I did so the other day I was out for a walk.
I remember starting on a second pair for me (with the base in the turquoise/green colour), but I got real annoyed at it, and only did one mitten.
Now when I see them I can find several flaws in the execution of the mittens.
The top is all wrong and the start of the thumb is made all wrong.
It was however my first ever pair ( and only, so far) of mittens (really 3 years ago?!). And the shaping of the mitten was done mostly without a pattern.
So I will allow myself to cut myself some slack.
 

Some knitting

 

A bouquet from a friend, with some of my knitting on top

The next pictures will show the knitted Christmas balls I have made so far.

They will need to be stuffed and get a string of some sort before they are really done though.

So I took a walk in the snow 

(only a short one, can't remember where I put my mittens ;) )

So that's that.

I have been knitting more, drawing more and drinking more tea.
--- That's all I can manage to tell you right now---

Time

Time passes, somtimes without we notice it..

Far too much time has passed with me avoiding, hating, being afraid of life.

Here at the psychiatric ward, life goes slow.
constantly checking the time- one hour to food, six hours till bed!?

At the same time it is SO intense!
Here I am constantly confronted with all of my problems at the same time.
Here there is no sleeping all day (which is normally my whole life).

I try and keep "sane" ;) , by knitting and drawing, oh and tea drinking, of course!

A try on poppy (poppies?)

Just now

I am now at a psychiatric ward in Copenhagen.

Let me bring you up to speed: (from my point of wiew)
-the world is evil
-people are mean
-You cannot trust anyone
-I am a failure
-life is ment to be this way and this hard
-I will never get a better life
-I am really just waiting to be betrayed

Now you might just think this is a load of crap.
But its my crap, my reality

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At least there is still knitting to be done, drawings to make and tea to be drunk
(the picture, though turned wrong, shows a finnished knitted christmas ball and a newly started christmas ball plus the pattern for it.)

There is no kitty though and no candels..

Legwarmers

A try on fair isle

knitted with different leftoveryarns

-just trying my way with different colourpatterns

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Mood deffinately not good. At all.

Not really sure what I am going to do about it at the moment...

But something gotta change - soon

livingroom update and curtains

My living room is almost done!

I am by the way very pleased with my curtains :)

Here you can see the work in progress

Christmas at the "Vinstrup" Family

 Christmas at the "Vinstrup" Family

  Mom and dad one evening.

Mom knitting and dad cuddling with the kitty

 

Christmas this year was just brilliant.

I loved all of the days leading up to the 24th of december.

Cooking, baking, knitting, games, christmas decorations, preparing christmas gifts.

I am looving it!

After the 24th things got harder I will say...

Scarf for my father

Greys and browns in a zigzag pattern with knit and purl stitches.

It was pretty basic, but I always like it when I can change colours once in a while:)

Now my father got 3 home-made scarf's I have made....

What shall I make for him next?!

finished projects

 I have finished a project, but I will have to wait till after Christmas to show you...

It is kept in brownish colours

It was really rather fun doing this project, and I always like it when I learn something new.

Two much smaller projects finished.

I am really pleased with the pink one.. I will let you guess what it is;)

The kitty though was not too pleased with me disturbing her sleep!

I think I will soon have to play with her to avoid her ruining my furniture!

Picture of the kitty

 I felt I could not make another post without a picture, so I found this one

The is the kitty lying on my lap, in my new sofa. My laptop in front of me, while I am sewing in threads on a knitting project.
Awww does it get any cuter?!
A perfect evening in my world..

I will of course not mention any of the trouble she has been doing;)

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December has come.
But where is my advent candle?! I gotta get myself one, or it simply will not be Christmas

poem for my mood

Life Is Fine by Langston Hughes

I went down to the river,
I set down on the bank.
I tried to think but couldn't,
So I jumped in and sank.

I came up once and hollered!
I came up twice and cried!
If that water hadn't a-been so cold
I might've sunk and died.

But it was Cold in that water! It was cold!

I took the elevator
Sixteen floors above the ground.
I thought about my baby
And thought I would jump down.

I stood there and I hollered!
I stood there and I cried!
If it hadn't a-been so high
I might've jumped and died.

But it was High up there! It was high!

So since I'm still here livin',
I guess I will live on.
I could've died for love--
But for livin' I was born

Though you may hear me holler,
And you may see me cry--
I'll be dogged, sweet baby,
If you gonna see me die.

Life is fine! Fine as wine! Life is fine!
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I am busy doing nothing and everything at the same time
But so happy that Christmas with all its charm an joy is on its way:)
Just thought I would share one of the only poems I actually like and know!

Kitchen update

 Yes, my kitchen is light purple :)

I am soooooo excited - to put it mildly

All I wanna do is giggle and twirl around myself ( oh and hum, and sing and laugh)

It's going to be f-a-n-t-a-s-t-i-c when I finally get a living room I can be in, and a kitchen I can actually cook in!!

out for a walk

Out for a walk

striped double scarf

I have finally gotten around to finishing, and giving the scarf I made for my brother last christmas!

It is a scarf knitted on the round for thickness, and with lots of colour in the design.
The large stripes are knitted like stranded knitting. The result is not fantastic, but it was only my second time trying stranded knitting. So I guess it is ok.
I did have trouble getting enough yarn, because I made it from my head - I didn't know how much yarn to get, and when I realised I wanted it to get longer, I couldn't get any of the yarn. Lesson learned ;)

Sometimes

Sometimes I just want to share the pain I am in

Sometimes I wish one of my legs was broken instead

Sometimes I want to give up

Sometimes I just want to throw with things

Sometimes I think I can't stand it any more

Sometimes I want to cry for help, but instead I try and forget it

Sometimes I think sleeping is my only way through it

Sometimes I forget to hope

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Me depressed, nah, what are you talking about;)